I have been feeling much better the last few days. Feeling more like myself. I have all the same problems but they haven't been dragging me down like they were. Today, I was painting after our family lunch and just got really sleepy. Getting sleepy while painting is really unusual. Instead of falling asleep in my chair and risking knocking over my palette, medium and gamsol, I took a nap. Napping during the day is usually really difficult for me but I fell asleep on the couch with my husband watching tv next to me. He falls asleep in front of the tv all the time but I have to be extremely tired to fall asleep with light and sound. He got up and started making dinner without waking me.
I know it is probably just a result of getting older. I don't think turning 50 sucks even if napping is a part of my life life now. My children are raised. I will be single for the first time in nearly 30 years soon. I have a lot of creative ideas I would like to pursue. I have more ideas than I could possibly complete in another 50 years. My biggest worries are supporting myself financially and my body working well. Since I have been feeling so much better the last few days I am not as worried about the napping. I don't like that it ate into my painting time but not feeling well ate into my painting time more. I will try to not worry so much. It isn't helpful.
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